if you live by faith you may not see

faith depends on spiritual blindness and it needs an object. for example faith by whom and and for whom? if one has faith it implies that you are certain of something you cannot see (Hebrew 11:1) but how do you know something is certain if you cannot see it. you believe. and if you believe, you is the object of your belief? God or something else no? i'm living in that space of the unknown, only faith will guide me, but more poignantly only faith in God. it is discomforting to be in this place of faith, as my friend said yesterday, "that's when shit gets real." it has gotten real, and i've been stressing about it. but today i choose to let go of stress, and enter into the desert of faith, purposefully, aware of my feelings, and working for intention. i'm almost 25 and the impulsiveness will not fly anymore. i've been relying on grace, based on my hasty decisions, but now as i enter into this new season i choose to rely on faith. holding the tension of the inconsequential blindness.