when months feel like a year, but still there is a lot of growing

feeling more disconnected from the self, who is connected to friends, who is connected to world, who is connected to hopelessness, which is connected to doom.
a good thing, because her feeling more connected to God which is connected to Jesus, who is connected to life, who is connected to abundance, which is connected to hope. but more disconnected become to the things that take away from experiencing this fullness. only few worship it, therefore only few respond to invitation to worship.worship takes surrender people these days "too smart" for that, "too knowledgeable" no bend no knees, too therapeutic with heart's devices. therapists, friends, books, journals, lovers, music, dumb phones, pastors, and even you. take a scoop of heart seductions that call to serve, quieting the voice of Maker, maker who makes and brings Good News. until the point of a Word which meets, which pierces (sharper than a double edged sword), penetrates (dividing soul and spirit), and judges (attitudes of the heart). her prayer oh God, is this: penetrate that divisiveness between her soul and her spirit. they have broken into millions of pieces and need moons of repair.