in my wild adventure during college

in my wild adventures during college i smoked
weed a lot one year 
never got searched
never went to jail
never got a misdemeanor
never even paid a fine
yeah, Christian young woman, saved and sanctified me, smoking out
and getting high
living next to the weed man was pretty convenient
he guided me in rollin' my first blunt
she coached me in taking my first hit
dam near passing out on the floor 
yeah, Christian young woman, saved and sanctified me, packin that swisha tight
like spaghetti on a fork
together we got high
seeing you in juvi today
brought all the memories back
i'm embarrassed to compare
my story to yours 
never got searched
never went to jail
never got a misdemeanor
never even paid a fine
in my wild adventures during college
i went to new york
made it my mission to get some weed one night
i was thrilled by the allure
by the waft of danger on concrete street
new york weed laws back then
were much more severe than los angeles ones
the adventure became all the more appealing
i was with T and X, my black and brown brothers
we finally settled on buying from a random
brother on some random corner of NYC streets
to commemorate T and X bought fortys
as T and X drank they forty's and we walked through
a park
New York Police descended from the trees
shown flash lights on our brown faces
T and X were searched and given fines for
open cans of beer
i never prayed more
and my knees shaked
as police ignored me
useless bait 
my recently purchased sak lay in the bottom of my purse
dead silent shhhhhhhhhhh
Lord Jesus help
yeah conveniently calling on the Savior
press on press off relationship 
never got searched
never went to jail
never got a misdemeanor
never even paid a fine
from the outside
we ain't the same
i am college educated
high school graduated
two-parent household raised
mentored as a youth
church born and bred
but, you see,
i like you have made
my choices
you me, we
we have made choices
i smoked weed because i was depressed
choice,
i smoked weed because i felt like dying
choice
i smoked weed because i thought nobody cared
lie
i smoked weed because i felt alone
lie
i smoked weed because i was mourning a broken relationship
between Christ and I
truth
in my wild adventures during college i smoked weed a lot one year
never got searched
never went to jail
never got a misdemeanor
never even paid a fine
the truth is if i was a black or brown man
i would probably be telling you a different story
if i had the appearance of what may be a scary threat
i would probably be telling you a different story
if you're in juvi because of weed
you were not so fortunate as me
but this i know
you aren't no different than me
after all
because you and me
need to be ten thousand times more
doses of Jesus
to cure all the ills and fills
within us
to be WHOLE